Blowing a fuse

My temper has been short. VERY short. I am stessing out about my upcoming NCLEX and have already "failed" myself half a dozen times. I try and get everything done but it seems impossible. I have a list that keeps growing and growing with things that need done that I want to do. This is bullshit. I can't sleep. I can't think straight anymore. I forget things so easily. I forget where I park my car, or can't remember driving home. There are days I have to check my bag three and four times just to make sure I have eveyrthing. Stress fucking sucks. I used to be super memory girl.. and now.. welll.... I can't remember what I am now. I will be working on things and realise that I do not have enough time to do half the shit that needs done and I just feel rage. I am serious. RAGE. It pisses me off so much that I have so much shit to do and no time to do it. Three and four hours a night is not cutting it. I want a vacation. I want to go somewhere and not look at a book. I need some sleep. I need a break. I can't wait until school is over with.

The sound of laughter

I remembered every time:
You called me dummy
You made me feel inadequate
You walked away when I cried
You turned away
You yelled or jabbed me with your finger
You put your needs first
You laughed at our expense
You were apathetic
You lied
You hurt us
You lost

I will forget you. I will never forgive you. I paid attention. I learned. You are egocentric. It was to my advantage. You underestimated me. You didn't know me. You don't know me. You never will. You are pretend. A farse. Such a good person. Such a lie.