Kissing the wind

I sat quietly in your office. You had lunch and drank my soda. You had water there, but you always drink my soda. I secretly smiled. We talked and you checked your watch a dozen times. I wanted lunch, but didn't want to leave yet. A student came in for help. He needed a shave and reeked of body spray. You helped him. I sat, listening, watching your hands as you explained things that I knew nothing about. I knew it seemed simple to you and you were trying to explain it to him in the best way possible for him to understand. You asked open ended questions and made him think. You directed him and explained to him why something is and what he was supposed to do with it. As you were helping him out I was thinking "next semester you are going to get so tired of me asking questions." The kid left knowing what direction that he needed to go. I'm not sure he will do well, but it's not due to lack of instruction. It was time for me to go. I looked out the window, looking at the beautiful spring day on the other side of the glass. I wanted to stop time. We could leave, go for a walk, weaving around people frozen in their tracks. We could pick flowers take a nap in a bed of clover. I stop daydreaming and tell you goodbye. We walked down the stairs and you touched my arm, kissed my cheek, and I walked away under a canopy of spring.

Saying goodbye to the boys.

Dragon said goodbye to his boys yesterday. I had my guard dog nuetered. He is now on his way to becomming an "it" dog. The kids had a good easter. They hunted Easter eggs and ate way too much chocolate. I had a nice weekend. I loved being out of school just as much as the kids did. We went to see Ice Age 2 and just had a great time. Too bad it's over!

Quick! Call Delilah!

When I get stressed out I can freak out about everything. My mind tends to take everything that is going wrong and put it into one big pile. I then pick the first thing on the pile, which is usually the smallest thing and make a huge issue out of it in order to cover up the other issues. I need to stop that. I try and push those closest away so that they don't have to deal with me being stessed, and then I stress about pushing them away when all I want is to know that I am loved regardless of what happens. I know that stressing over things can't help them. I know that I need to just worry about things I can control. It's easier said than done.

I talk to you but its not the same as touching you
And every time you whisper my name, I wanna run to you
We'll be together, it won't be long
But it feels like forever, and its hard to be strong

Wishing you were here by my side is all that I can do
Got my arms around my pillow at night, they should be
holdin' you
Thought I was stronger, how could I know,
I can't take this much longer, its so hard on my soul

Baby I just can't wait, till I see your face
Chase away this loneliness inside
When you're close to my heart, right here in my arms
Then and only then, will I be satisfied
I'm missing you now
We'll be together, it won't be long, it won't be long
But it feels like forever, and its hard to be strong

That, Ladies and Gentlemen, was Michael Bolton. Who knew that Mikey could sing words that were written for my heart?

A few new pictures

Look! We are a coloring book! 


Mary and Mom, chillin like villians.


Brenden and Mary can't stop giggling!