I turn and draw my legs up to my chest, my legs touch your back and I remember instantly that you are there. I wrap my arms around you and kiss your smooth skin and listen with my eyes closed as you breathe. You are warm against me as I fall back into the void of sleep. I awaken and I am alone. You were never there. You are in your bed miles away while I am in mine. I pull my legs to my chest and turn on the tv. I listen to the drone of a newscaster on ESPN and fall back asleep. I awaken a few hours later feeling gross. I get up and stumble to the bathroom. One look in the mirror reflects my pale face. My eyes look brilliantly blue compared to my ghostly white skin. I want to throw up. I don't feel well and my stomach rolls. I correct myself from saying stomach, when I know it is in fact my small intestines. Damn nursing school, I can't even be sick without diagnosing myself. I splash some water over my face and try not to hurl. In my head I am going over possible causes of gastrointestinal issues. I decide it has to be the thanksgiving food I ate at work. Has to be. My tummy is poofed out from all the ick inside. I lay back down. Finally falling back asleep. When I woke back up I feel better, not great still, but better. I haven't eaten though and don't plan on it.

My Mary recently was chosen to be a little cheerleader at the Byng basketball game. She was a doll and was really enthuastic about cheering. She has been going around the house doing cheers. She was really cute out there with the big girls.

Thanksgiving was good. I spent it with my family. I helped my son pop wheelies and my daughter ride her bike with training wheels. My dad and I teased my son, and he got mad because he can dish it out but can't take it. It was a good day. My great grandmother was there and I talked to her about nursing. She was in the first practical nursing program in pontotoc county. She worked at Valley View for a little while, but then moved to OKC and worked at Southwest Community Hospital. She told me about a man who came into the ER with his throat cut from ear to ear and lived. She worked in all different areas of the hospial before finally moving back to ada in the late 80's. She is a wonderful person and I hope to be as good of a nurse as she was. I also got to spend time with my mom and dad. We all stay so busy it seems like I never get to see them anymore. I really miss them. There are times that I just want to be like a kid and run up and grab them and give them a big huge hug, but that's not too grown up of me is it? My parents have been through so much together and have come so far. I am so proud of them. They are awesome people.

Other than feeling like shiznit there is not much else to say. I have so much studying to do tommorrow. I put it all off until the last second like a real genius. I will be sooooo glad when christmas break gets here. 15 more school days. Whoopee!

I hope you all had a great thanksgiving.